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The Dark Portal

Get Lost In The Dark

Name:
Just Evan
Birthdate:
4 April 1987
External Services:
  • darkportal@livejournal.com
  • StitchMySmile2k
  • 257672316 ICQ status
Schools:
Act one: Get your hero up a tree.
Act two: Throw rocks at him
Act three: Get him down again.

When I was a child I was told that the man who made time made plenty of it. But whoever told me that was wrong. There is never enough time, never. There is only this time and you mark it and pass it and kill it any way you can. Now, with what time I have left, I want to tell the story of my time. My time has come, what else would I be doing? I see this story as the gift of my second childhood, a story of death and enchantment, madness and delusion, faint hearts and fair maids; in short, a love story. Given more time it might have been a different story but that is not the point. The point is that like all stories, if it goes on long enough, it will end in death. The trick is to avoid spoiling it.

I am twenty years old but I am already an old man. In fact I am a very old man and like all old men I am dying. And though I am dying from any number of things I am dying mainly because I have a bad heart. I would like to be able to say that I was led astray and killed by it but that would not be strictly true. If it wasn't my heart it would be something esle, some other foolishness which did for me.

Nevertheless, a bad heart is a bad heart and no matter how well intentioned it is or whether it is in the right place or not, given time, one way or another, it will kill you.


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In an age of nothing, at a time when we stand at the brink of our own destruction - Strengthen your belief in yourself, in the future of humanity, in the things of this world which cannot easily be perceived. Awaken that which lies dormant now within your soul. Re-ignite the flame of your consciousness, and measure the strength of your conviction. Reveal the lie. Renounce your hatred. Seek, find, and embrace the truths you are fortunate enough to discover. Cherish them, use them to anchor you in the sea of chaos that is the world we live in. When twilight draws near, when you are pushed to the very limits of your soul, when it seems that all that you have left are the dead remnants of the fabric of your life - Believe.

I am a 22-year-old Creative Writing English Major attending Salem State College. I was the program director of WMWM Salem 91.7FM. I am a key-holder at video game retailer. I am not a big deal.

Fear cannot touch me...
It can only taunt me,
it cannot take me,
just tell me where to go...
I can either follow,
or stay in my bed...
I can hold on to the things that i know...
The dead stay dead,
they cannot walk.
The shadows are darkness.
And darkness cant talk.


Communities I Moderate:
theinnerdru
_beautifuldecay
dresdendolls (founder) (now maintained by billh)
_maybememories
_over_the_stars

Concerts To Go To (striked out=already attended):

  • Story of the Year, My Chemical Romance, Thrice, and The Used at Roxy
  • WBCN River Rave 2003
  • Missing Joe and Eve 6 at Hatch Shell
  • OzzFest 2003
  • Atomship, Default, and Evanescence at Avalon
  • Kindred, Eugine Mirman, Quay, and Dresden Dolls at Lexington High School
  • Sunburned Hand of the Man, Dresden Dolls, and Mission of Burma at Avalon
  • WBCN River Rave 2004
  • Anna Vogelzang at Zeitgeist Gallery
  • Can't Face the Falling, Jason Webley, Aleck Redfern & The Eyesores, and Dresden Dolls at Living Room
  • Count Zero, Tiger Lillies, and Dresden Dolls at Avalon
  • Mommy and Daddy, The Static Age, Eyes Like Knives, and Can't Face the Falling at Living Room
  • Hate the Living, Pyad, My Pet Demon, Life In Vain, and Halo of Thorns at Sputnix
  • OzzFest 2005
  • Rory Desmond, Version X, A Mortuary Tribute, and Halo of Thorns at Teen Center
  • Blue Merle and Anna Nalick at Paradise
  • Turkish Queen, Beat Circus, and Sleepytime Gorilla Museum at TT the Bear's
  • Via ROMEN, Faun Fables, Devotchka, and Dresden Dolls at Avalon
  • Corrosion of Conformity and Disturbed at Avalon
  • Porches on the Autobahn, Humanwine, and Dresden Dolls at Orpheum
  • Rachel and Anna Vogelzang at Crawford Memorial United Methodist Church
  • OzzFest 2006
  • Family Values Tour 2006
  • OzzFest 2007
  • Far From Distant, Acadia, A Loss For Words, Drive By, and I Am the Avalanche at Living Room


Trust me. This is necessary. This...is...necessary. Pretty colors. Mother. Forgive me.
I had another dream of you. Thanks for not labeling me. Everyone else has.
It is written all over my face. Erase. Crease. Decease.
Diagnose.
Morose.
Doctors like to classify.

I am become
words on paper.
A file.
A program.
I am labeled again.


There are many names for
what I am.




Classifcations.

Disorders.


Orders
Disobey.
Hell to pay.






Pouring blood in the
Pouring rain.
A thousand hells
in the form of pain.
One single bullet
with my name.





Study me. Sample me.
You know nothing about me.


Evan is...

evan is a sexpot
evan is one sophisticated dude
evan is my angel
evan is ok
evan is in for video treats
evan is such a pretty girl
evan is the man home page
evan is all smiles as he and kevin try to break the 2
evan is still in thailand
evan is a young australian vampire
evan is my homeboy
evan is tired
evan is not gay
evan is determined not to follow in his footsteps and instead to follow the letter of the law
evan is thorough in his work and while some students answer "yes" or "no" to questions
evan is going to be going in for monthly checkups and monthly mris
evan is here to help you find answers as you look at the patterns in your relationships
evan is the newest partner of this firm
evan is sitting in his office
evan is 43
evan is writing a book with san francisco economist dr
evan is now working for himself mostly in glamour
evan is our little monkey
evan is pictured with a 'danish princess' at a rotary function in denmark
evan is our wonderful
evan is a jazz pianist who is just returning from a year of forced sabbatical due to a near crippling injury to his right hand sustained in a car accident
evan is also a principal engineer at veritas corp
evan is the host of cbc newsworld's provocative show on print culture
evan is back in baseball again
evan is a seattle jazz vibraphonist
evan is nosy
evan is a month away from turning four
evan is a 5 year old boy from canada
evan is a real estate agent that is known in the community of boise for their dedicated client service
evan is very thorough
evan is proof that playing live music is a great way to release nervous energy
evan is host of the weekly radio food show "good food" which is heard each saturday morning at 11am on kcrw 89
evan is practically running now
evan is a 9th grade biology and earth systems teacher
evan is currently residing in las vegas
evan is continuing to do well
evan is currently an honor student at waverly high school
evan is a very happy easy going child
evan is hat spice
evan is soon to be seven years old and a little small for his age but very healthy
evan is one of the most talented skiers i have the oppertuinity to work with
evan is to cement his celebrity in the play's first scene
evan is a neutered male
evan is different from most
evan is interested in performing music and east asian studies
evan is always depressed
evan is a second
evan is a principal engineer and data availability maven with veritas software corporation
evan is bowled over by this pretty
evan is more of a purist
evan is currently serving a 200 year sentence at spring creek correctional center in seward
evan is hanging out in london
evan is reeling in his first fish
evan is more than
evan is a happy baby and a natural ham
evan is now a sophomore and is in his 3rd semester with the hangs
evan is a new regular character on "sex and the city"
evan is the gerson and barbara bass baker distinguished professor of cancer biology at the university of california
evan is a creme colored dog with orange spots
evan is the director of cyon research intelligence and cyon research labs; columnist for ea report
evan is admitted to practice law in ohio
evan is a talented multi
evan is suspended from the force
evan is in a rock & roll band
evan is looking to continue a long tradition of transplanted grad
evan is a freshman at eureka high
evan is responsible for overseeing corporate communications activities for his clients
evan is available to travel and shoot just about anywhere
evan is a bit of a crap actor ip
evan is born again in a religious conversion
evan is killed by assassin roy mcneer
evan is sure that the deaths are not accidents but are they linked to the mysterious destruction of mrs
evan is responsible for supervising the activities of the geo
evan is small for his age
evan is the 2
evan is working at christie's in nyc
evan is off and skating for first time
evan is a huge man with black wavey hair and blue eyes
evan is the senior editor of engineering automation report; director of cyon research intelligence and cyon research labs; conference manager of cofes; and
evan is still laughing and loving school
evan is definitely seeing her as a potential mistress
evan is studying part
evan is 3 years
evan is dividing his season between the road and mountain bike and is earning top honors in both
evan is 6'7" and 230 pounds with 4
evan is 12 years old and lives in crystal falls
evan is really sympathetic to her
evan is separating the ores using mesh sifting grates of differing sizes
evan is appointed tarrytown's temporary substitute fire engine
evan is a full
evan is gorgeous?
evan is perplexed about life
evan is 733t
evan is joe millionaire
evan is learning
evan is my angel
evan is not gay
evan is on training till friday 18th
evan is ook
evan is taking his morning
evan is scheduled
evan is worth more
evan is everywhere
evan is a little boy
evan is tired
evan is smart
evan is by far one of
evan is the lone arranger
evan is ok
evan is 3
evan is waaaaaaay better
evan is rather short
evan is back in america
evan is ook mee om te kijken naar zijn grote zus
evan is right at 14 lbs
evan is smart' from rain
evan is brave because he has to go to the hospital a lot and get shots and he doesn’t complain
evan is the co
evan is thorough in his work and while some students answer ‘yes’ or ‘no’ to questions
evan is my homeboy
evan is here to help you find answers as you look at the patterns in your relationships
evan is almost ready
evan is a little more stressed and needs dopamine to control bp and supplemental o2 anywhere from 25 to 50 percent
evan is very thorough
evan is wees
evan is easy take a
evan is wrong
evan is a principal engineer and data availability maven with veritas software corporation
evan is my only close straight
evan is a singer
evan is so sickened by his job that he takes bronwen to swansea
evan is presently hard at work on star
evan is sitting in his office
evan is 43
evan is actually rich
evan is trying really hard
evan is waiting on the collin county district clerk to file a supplemental clerks record so he can complete his appellant's brief
evan is nosy
evan is a jungian alchemist and celtic shaman
evan is the director of the school of alchemy in colorado
evan is admitted to practice law in ohio
evan is currently residing in las vegas
evan is different from most
evan is wearing afo's
evan is pictured with a 'danish princess' at a rotary function in denmark
evan is also a graduate of the henry crown fellowship program
evan is a 5 year old boy from canada
evan is always ready for his next concert and is excited to bring his best to bluegrass fans nationwide
evan is sitting in our old gold recliner at the old beach house
evan is one of six children
evan is amazing hes
evan is president of the student council
evan is a second
evan is located in brentwood road
evan is sooooooooooo hot and sexy
evan is growing up too fast
evan is more of a purist
evan is knocking out an average of 0
evan is not just starring
evan is a very effective leader and is not afraid to speak up when asian americans are wronged
evan is just your average `joe' by susan reinhardt
evan is indeed the "father" of successful electronic punching in the united states
evan is the most patient
evan is so cool
evan is approximately 83
evan is studying part
evan is appointed tarrytown's substitute fire engine
evan is miles from home
evan is always depressed
evan is to cement his celebrity in the play's first scene
evan is one of the most talented skiers i have the oppertuinity to work with

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